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6'000 watchers ? That sure is a lot, damn, and I don't know how to thank everyone !! After a long hiatus nonetheless ! I will keep this journal short, so as not to bother you guys too much haha
I know some of my watchers may be inactive today, but I still wanted to make some sort of gift, anything. As I'm not into editing models anymore (or for now at the very least), I don't have any model downloads to offer, and my meager Meta skills are very rusty, and 6'000 watchers must be thanked with something meaningful..
So this isn't much, but what about a MMD Suggestion corner ? Leave a suggestion, from a word, to a prompt, or a specific model, and if I like it, see it turned into a picture for you !
Thank you all very, very, very much !!
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[LIVE] Bunny Charity Stream
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And the stream is LIVE ! Sadly I can't join right now, but I will surely join later this afternoon !
There are informations about the raffles as well as purchasable sketches and drawing when you scroll down on the page. Please check it out.
Do it for the Bunnies !!
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Bunny Charity Stream Announcement !
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(Alternate title is "Munnies for the Bunnies")
On Saturday the 11th, 2017, join us in a Charity Stream to gather money for Stowarzyszenie Pomocy Królikom - Sopockie Uszakowo, a Bunny foundation.
Starting at noon, 12:00 (UTC+1) and expected to end around midnight, 00:00 (UTC+1), this stream wishes to gather money to help bunnies.
We'll play games, draw and have fun, but you can join it too ! Indeed, by giving money, you will gain credits and tickets to win something in a lottery (more information should be provided during the stream. There are various prizes, and you can get a ticket even with giving whatever you can !
Hosted by ChilkyArts on Picarto, and joined by ravket , Shiiberz , XxSyl , ginconomp and me, come join us to gather money and have fun ! This livestream will be with mics too, so you can hear us talk too. That's definitely the best thing about this whole Charity Stream, right ?
Stay tuned, and see you there !
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It's been a while.
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Hello.
I, for a long time, thought I would not come back on DeviantArt, nor Tumblr.
The reasons are cliché, but remain true. I was, and probably am, sick. Home was bad. My family isn't always the best. And school took most of my time, so the free time I had was devoted to the corners of my notes to draw. MMD became something at the back of my mind.
To be honest, my pictures weren't the best. Not because of skill - but because I didn't enjoy it anymore. Lots of drama - I'm no fool, I'm sure drama is still around today. And with my mood having a mind of its own, either my pictures felt too similar, or bad. I had no time for MMD and was unable to like it anymore. Sometimes I did a pic for a friend and opened it, and closed it as soon as I was finished. It was not genuine in a way.
And yesterday was Hatsune Miku's 10th birthday. She means a lot to me. I discovered her way back in 2007. I won't go into details, but 2007 was the year where my life went to shit. Too soon for a child, but that's not today's topic. My home became broken, and the parent I had left was unable to take care of me. I took refuge on the Internet. I discovered Miku, VOCALOID.
I was 10 at the time, and with that came a lot of entitlement and foolishness, that, I hope, has come to pass. But still - Miku, VOCALOID, and then MMD means so much to me. It gave me a community, a fandom, a place to go to when I couldn't handle my real life. It probably saved me - lots of those cliché edgy pictures I did from time to time were genuine, and thus a get away. Better get the edge onto a 3D picture than have it terrible consequences. As I cleared my deviations, I saw some of them - some were so terrible I laughed, while others reminded me of dark times.
So when I started not to enjoy MMD anymore, it felt weird. Something I built part of me started to make me feel even more terrible. So I had to stop. I should have done it some other way probably. Give some words. Talk about it. But I couldn't. Logging onto DeviantArt, onto Tumblr or trying to open MMD started and then became impossible for me.
And in a flash, two years had passed. I quit preparatory school, and as in two weeks I'm going to start my Master's degree.
It's no happy ending per see, but it's a path that I hope is bright. I still have bad days - it doesn't go away on a whim. I have traces on my body that time have troubles to erase. But I work, and as long as I have good days, or at least good moments, I will continue.
And even though I couldn't use MMD anymore, I had my pen. I drew. It was terrible; and it still is. But I kept drawing, no matter how bad it was. Because doodling on the sides of my notes kept me going. A bad doodle that made me smile, or gave me ideas. I can say I improved, especially when I compare with old drawings. It's no professional or art student level, but it's okay. I'm going at my pace, as someone who likes drawing when they have time.
And again, Miku's 10th birthday was yesterday. I took part in the #countdownmiku event on Twitter (check it out if you didn't know about it ! There are so many awesome illustrations !!) - drew for 10 days straight. Even did a 11th picture for the actual birthday. Some drawings are really bad but I genuinely like some of them.
And among all the beautiful illustrations, I saw MMD models.
And as cliché as it is, I felt the spark.
I wanted to use them. I wanted to download on this new computer that was devoid of MMD those models and use them. I didn't have any ideas for a picture. I just wanted to use them.
So today, on this brand new computer, I downloaded MMD. I opened it. I loaded Animasa's models. I downloaded a few models. Loaded them.
And I had fun. No effects, no stages, no poses pre-prepared. A model and some free time. And I had fun.
MMD may be a "simple" 3D program. Some see it as for kids, or cringy. Some think that as you grow up, you should leave it. But fuck. When I have that spark, I don't care to be seen as childish or cringy. Because I want to have fun. Good, pure fun.
I won't have those MMD pictures posting sprees as I sometimes had in the past. I stored away most of them - kept some of my favourite. But I want, from time to time, to post a MMD picture. Because I had fun making it.
Thank you to the people that for some reason kept following me, or faving my deviations. I can't answer to all the notes or comments - I deleted them to be honest. A half fresh start - my username means too much for me to abandon it. Thank you for 6'031 followers. It means a lot.
I would say sorry for the wall of text, but that would not be genuine. It feels good to put these thoughts onto paper.. Or screen rather.
In any case, thank you for reading, or skimming through the sappy text. Have a nice day, or night depending on when you read this.
Due'.
I, for a long time, thought I would not come back on DeviantArt, nor Tumblr.
The reasons are cliché, but remain true. I was, and probably am, sick. Home was bad. My family isn't always the best. And school took most of my time, so the free time I had was devoted to the corners of my notes to draw. MMD became something at the back of my mind.
To be honest, my pictures weren't the best. Not because of skill - but because I didn't enjoy it anymore. Lots of drama - I'm no fool, I'm sure drama is still around today. And with my mood having a mind of its own, either my pictures felt too similar, or bad. I had no time for MMD and was unable to like it anymore. Sometimes I did a pic for a friend and opened it, and closed it as soon as I was finished. It was not genuine in a way.
And yesterday was Hatsune Miku's 10th birthday. She means a lot to me. I discovered her way back in 2007. I won't go into details, but 2007 was the year where my life went to shit. Too soon for a child, but that's not today's topic. My home became broken, and the parent I had left was unable to take care of me. I took refuge on the Internet. I discovered Miku, VOCALOID.
I was 10 at the time, and with that came a lot of entitlement and foolishness, that, I hope, has come to pass. But still - Miku, VOCALOID, and then MMD means so much to me. It gave me a community, a fandom, a place to go to when I couldn't handle my real life. It probably saved me - lots of those cliché edgy pictures I did from time to time were genuine, and thus a get away. Better get the edge onto a 3D picture than have it terrible consequences. As I cleared my deviations, I saw some of them - some were so terrible I laughed, while others reminded me of dark times.
So when I started not to enjoy MMD anymore, it felt weird. Something I built part of me started to make me feel even more terrible. So I had to stop. I should have done it some other way probably. Give some words. Talk about it. But I couldn't. Logging onto DeviantArt, onto Tumblr or trying to open MMD started and then became impossible for me.
And in a flash, two years had passed. I quit preparatory school, and as in two weeks I'm going to start my Master's degree.
It's no happy ending per see, but it's a path that I hope is bright. I still have bad days - it doesn't go away on a whim. I have traces on my body that time have troubles to erase. But I work, and as long as I have good days, or at least good moments, I will continue.
And even though I couldn't use MMD anymore, I had my pen. I drew. It was terrible; and it still is. But I kept drawing, no matter how bad it was. Because doodling on the sides of my notes kept me going. A bad doodle that made me smile, or gave me ideas. I can say I improved, especially when I compare with old drawings. It's no professional or art student level, but it's okay. I'm going at my pace, as someone who likes drawing when they have time.
And again, Miku's 10th birthday was yesterday. I took part in the #countdownmiku event on Twitter (check it out if you didn't know about it ! There are so many awesome illustrations !!) - drew for 10 days straight. Even did a 11th picture for the actual birthday. Some drawings are really bad but I genuinely like some of them.
And among all the beautiful illustrations, I saw MMD models.
And as cliché as it is, I felt the spark.
I wanted to use them. I wanted to download on this new computer that was devoid of MMD those models and use them. I didn't have any ideas for a picture. I just wanted to use them.
So today, on this brand new computer, I downloaded MMD. I opened it. I loaded Animasa's models. I downloaded a few models. Loaded them.
And I had fun. No effects, no stages, no poses pre-prepared. A model and some free time. And I had fun.
MMD may be a "simple" 3D program. Some see it as for kids, or cringy. Some think that as you grow up, you should leave it. But fuck. When I have that spark, I don't care to be seen as childish or cringy. Because I want to have fun. Good, pure fun.
I won't have those MMD pictures posting sprees as I sometimes had in the past. I stored away most of them - kept some of my favourite. But I want, from time to time, to post a MMD picture. Because I had fun making it.
Thank you to the people that for some reason kept following me, or faving my deviations. I can't answer to all the notes or comments - I deleted them to be honest. A half fresh start - my username means too much for me to abandon it. Thank you for 6'031 followers. It means a lot.
I would say sorry for the wall of text, but that would not be genuine. It feels good to put these thoughts onto paper.. Or screen rather.
In any case, thank you for reading, or skimming through the sappy text. Have a nice day, or night depending on when you read this.
Due'.
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Mother of go-
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I live in the country side
like the one where the next town is at 8 km
and there are fields and forest around my place
and I had to go out of my house
to do something
so i was outside, and i saw that it started to go dark, and that they were some fog
it was a bit creepy
so i said to myself
"ah, looks like it could be Slenderman's place"
and then i turned around
and behind me where my neighbour
WHERE DID HE COME FROM
I SHOULD HAVE HEARD HIM
I SHOULD HAVE SEEN HIM COMING
BUT NO
ONE SECOND I'M ALONE
THE SECOND AFTER HE'S BEHIND ME
so yea
i got scared
i don't want to go out of my house anymore
like the one where the next town is at 8 km
and there are fields and forest around my place
and I had to go out of my house
to do something
so i was outside, and i saw that it started to go dark, and that they were some fog
it was a bit creepy
so i said to myself
"ah, looks like it could be Slenderman's place"
and then i turned around
and behind me where my neighbour
WHERE DID HE COME FROM
I SHOULD HAVE HEARD HIM
I SHOULD HAVE SEEN HIM COMING
BUT NO
ONE SECOND I'M ALONE
THE SECOND AFTER HE'S BEHIND ME
so yea
i got scared
i don't want to go out of my house anymore
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